.....START TRANSMISSION---------->THis is the last day of the somewad bullshit year 2005 and i am stuck here at home writing me blog, this is lame but i realise something 2dae. See, i finally saw that i am some bastard uncool guy trying to fit in with the cooler gang which i can say is not really wise to do. I finally realise that i am not the one calling the shots but rather desperately trying to get to noe new friends. Here comes the dun noe part again, i don't noe wad i m doing or wad else can i do
...saw Ivy and Joey at causeway point today, Ivy was buying her txtbk. I said hi and some other crap and i believe they are kind of lameded by my bullshit. E.g i said:"the queue is long" which is total crap+bullshit.
..still have not manage 2 get my physics txt, lee lee mui is gonna kill me on the 1st day of school...
...well this is a bit crazy but i thought of changing my image a bit, u noe, like change the why i look, change my personality abit... cos i am really getting sick and tired of my current image. I totally hav no self-confidence, i keep thinking that i suck big time, i am a gay bastard...
...seriously i have no special friend to share special moments in my damn life with, but doesn't matter anyway cos my damn life is just like me: it suck..
Here is me again at home on new year's eve, the last day of da freaking year, signing off...END TRANSMISSION
kiatolo[]
Well sry for the wait but my com broke down and i just recently got it fixed...anyway my new laptop is coming tmr so i will have a new com. Alrite stop this bull shit, and i wrote all these bullshit cos i don't know what i want or need or have anymore. I just feel extremely fucked up this holiday, I don't know why, i don't noe anything anymore. I am just stuck there and then all of a sudden, I felt very lonely, cos i don't noe who my friends are anymore. I thought going away for a while to NZ might make it better, but it happened otherwise. I felt very confuse : why am i here in this world, i don't noe. This world where i exist as a consciousness is not fun at all, cos ppl dun get what they want, things dun go their way and everyday life is just so imperfect that it is almost unbearable. Why cant this world be just a bit more perfect and let ppl enjoy themselves before dying off into oblivion? Why cant we know all answers to all questions that were asked? Why are we in this so-called "world" place anyway? What are we? What am I? All these, I don't know. We don't know so many things that we spend our entire lives trying to find answers and by that time, we would already be living the last days of our lives. Why can't i get what i need? I have a feeling that everyone hates me. I think i am a bastard trying to pass off as some cool guy. I think I am a arrogant sucker who don't deserves praises. I think I can do nothing cos i have no talents. I suck in all aspects in my life, I m a failure. Its is not that i expect too much of myself, it is the real truth and i m sure everyone will agree. I only noe how to complain, never to improve. Do I even deserve to be in this world? Maybe not but i can see how nice this world would be if i wasn't in it. Why must evolution take place, i rather we are all still single-cell organism, it will be so much better.
kiatolo[]
Name: Kiat x)
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Phylum: Chordata
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Family: Hominidae
Genus: Homo
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